On maintaining

 First, it might not have been the very first time, but I recall this time better than the past. Or perhaps I understood what my universe meant to the doctor at that time. “You’re maintaining.”, the doctor says.

Maintaining is what you are when your doctor says so.  I am not complaining, I am maintaining. What a joy!

Maintaining is what you are when your choices are risk adjusted in the face of present knowledge and modeling. Present knowledge can be divisive, the modeling too. One group can know one thing to be and another group a different one. The maintenance of state to permit a common good can look rosy or bleak. 

When I was a younger man there was cosmetic dentistry now there is legacy dentistry.  At least I still got some dentistry in my life! 

On this now

 First, on this now, let me remember the past and what I do not need to do. Smile at the thought what were my burdens already are past. And yet remember the ones I still gladly have. This small wonder, as a hummingbird is at the flower. Pick up, receive the day as it rolls and hearts to heads and back again taking the blessing for what it is. 

Of my past burdens, which now are yours, can I say now how sorry I am for all the work that did not get done?  And what good would that do but ease my conscience? It would tell you, yes I know the sack of woe you now have. And yet today, finally perhaps I see another process at play and my need to offer my apologies fades like night when the light of a new day breaks. 

Of my past burdens, which before me were someone else’s. That is they were your burdens, you can have them back now.  And I do appreciate you letting me borrow them for a while.  I have learned so much, and I do hope I was able to share what I learned with you. It may have been lost in the whorl of what.  There was so much going on.  I know I was busy.  As to the usefulness of it, I do understand that it seemed useful to me, but not to the organization.  And therefore back to the organization go the burdens that I carried.

On Emerson and self-reliance

 First, Emerson’s self-reliance is a piece of writing where the writer is really attempting to get the reader to stop reading the writing. From the first paragraph you are repeatedly told to just depend upon your self.  Quite tempting to just close the pages and not read it.

There are reasons to keep reading the essay. One whole measure of thought is the knowledge that you are here today - engaged to the day and what it brings and what it takes if you are self-reliant. This is your reveal, measured by another day, a moment, to be yourself and see the universe through your eyes. Your eyes given you by the universe that you are a select member.  To be at wonder as you receive  the particulars of the processes that surround and make the frame of your being, 

And yet, there are processes and the information they produce that at times I will see what others say. I will surrender to the expertise of others. I will be happy to have your special understanding assist with the present. In so doing I put my faith in your effort 

On my weeping roof

 First, it weeps because of all the love it sees laying there. 

Protection by enforcement of code meant to protect a life. The code at this point seems oh so pointless. Yet  it continues to be part of the show, as in the show stopper. 

What is this code? And is it so pointless?And what might happen next?

The code is a requirement to have an AC disconnect- “SINGLE THROW SAFETY SWITCH “ in order to turn off alternating current which could cause harm to an individual remote from a energy producing grid 

The possibility of pointlessness here is …a terrain which on the one hand I am not an expert at, and on the other hand I have been trying to understand if the universe of knowledge around the energy system has changed to make it a moot requirement. Put another way, has the technology changed to automatically yield prior specific requirements as no longer needed ruins which block usage?

And it may not be the person on the grid that needs the protection. It is the grid itself that need protection from your energy producing grid. Your energy producing system might send energy in a format which is bad for the grid. And in this knowledge I know I am lacking in the full meter required to discuss. But then, my understanding is that there are gadgets in the system that do that now. If your energy producing system is out of kilt or no longer on the grid then it will stop passing energy outside. . For this and so much more :

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Islanding

So this is what I want: my roof to stop weeping from all the inaction the vendor and the building department have in regard to this code requirement   My roof will weep no longer when the sun shines on the panels to generate renewable energy for people to use.

On Saturday

 First, on Saturday , in the morning, the world is open and wide.  Later as choices pave a particular path the universe of options shrink.

Waking on a Monday, that then became a Saturday-like day is a pleasant childhood  memory. I traveled from being late waking for school to schools out forever, or at least as far as I could imagine.

Waking on a day to have the world open and wide to me, carrying your smile with me. Your sweet smile that Monday awaking to find the day as free.  Maybe it was a Thursday, what ever it was, it was a day when the universe changed with news and your sweet smile. 

On cities

 First, we came together and again with increasing numbers until we were a city. What makes the city is a time and place.  A city is not just a place because in time a city processes the past places into the ruins, good and bad that make it a city. 

From the quarry of one ruin we can mine for blocks to build another future. From the quarry of another ruin we can see the outline of time cut deep into the cellar door.

From the quarry of my present city I ponder prodding processes, as my roof gently weeps. 

On maps

 First, maps can differ in the correspondence they have to a territory. Put another way, some maps are better than other maps. The correspondence a map has is a function of a reader's ability  to receive its  representation of the territory. (Note to self: Let's make a point of increasing out ability to receive representational forms, even the ones that we don't feel very comfortable with.)

Some maps are better for me, and others are better for you. We in our different lives living according to different maps sorting the information received. We rub alone one another in civil ways we appreciate inside and outside our communities.

Some maps are not good for anything more than a message to us that these thoughts were so wrong they ended in ruinous whorls of pain, sorted into concerns and worries after the fact.  Seeing those ruins can take a generation or more to settle out into the maps we keep in our hearts and minds to save us the pain we know they can cause any of us.

Some maps are better, still. The representation of memory accesses in C is not one of them, at least from what I've read. To be frank, C as a language I have a lot of unexplored-ness about. Well, the compiler too.  Just what does the compiler know, apparently more than it should some times as it aggressively does predictive branching, sigh.

Some maps are better, as one can see comparing the efficiency of operations between Roman numerals and Arabic numerals. In the land of ciphering, the Adding to Subtracting: The operations with Arabic numerals are mapped more efficiently from first operands to the last.  It is not the case that one works and the other does not, only one is far more efficient than the other in processing  quantitative narratives. And so the correspondence may initially be the same and result in the same end, but the journey via one representational system compared to another is different.

Pilgrim’s Progress

 First, please know mistakes were made.  Of course that is the origin of many a story, especially those meant to impart knowledge. The thing is that we didn’t know they were ruinous until much later.  And this is a common cause too in many a tale to the traveler. A pilgrim estimate’s of what a trip will involve and the real cost can be much different. 

First, the process is meant to impart some experience for the pilgrim to receive.  And the path is composed of more than just the pilgrim and the land. There are territories and maps, and never is a map the same as territory and yet the path exists still for the pilgrim’s progress.  To understand the mistakes made remember this traveler.

On first

 First is a state of mind that proposes a relation between elements in a universe of elements where some element or set of elements precedes others.

Being first does not necessarily mean it is “better” than non-first elements 

There are states of mind where an understanding of the  the universe is systematically linear. However, imparting understand to others can be better done is a different order.